Stay at home again, when prelims is like 2 weeks away?! What am I thinking man, not going school when I actually know my prelims are nearing. Booked Jenies on Thursday/Friday for a study session, just two of us. I can't study well in big groups. Either at school or Elias Mac, but most probably is Elias Mac. She said it's best to study there, especially till late night.

With the lawsuit with TVXQ on hand, SM still had the guts to let the new girl group f(x) debut! And mind you Lee Soo Man, why on earth let them have a name which has got to do with Maths?! During this period, I doubt they'll gain much fans, except for guys who enjoys oogling at girls doing sexy moves with their body? Cassiopeians make up a large part of why SME is earning so much money! With them now boycotting SME, I don't think the girls will gain any fans soon after their debut. Perhaps like Girls' Generation, suffer for the first half and enjoy for the later part? If that's really the case, then I pity Jessica's sister, Krystal who is in that group. Heard that it's going to be a girl version of SHINee, what the hell. YG came up with a female Big Bang 2NE1, so Lee Soo Man is not going to lose to YG and came up with f(x), what a stupid name for a girl group! I'd rather they be named as Crystal, sticking to the rumored group name. Well, I do hope they gain anti-fans first, teach Lee Soo Man a lesson for ill-treating our boys! Let him lose money more and more then admit defeat under the boycotting of Cassiopeians! I know it may sound ridiculous, who am I to say these type of things. But I'm just typing what I really felt and what I really wanted to happen. I wish for Lee Soo Man to get his retributions and stop making those slave contracts! Poor f(x) girls, I wonder if they've started to regret a little for signing the contract, after hearing about the lawsuit between SM and TVXQ!

Stayed home the whole day, didn't went to visit Grandma. Got to stay home and finish up my F&N! Had macdonald for dinner, because it's raining and daddy can't possibly go out and buy dinner for us. After doing finish F&N, watched shows with sister and brother. Mum came back home, and said that when she reached grandma's place, grandpa told her that grandma said if she can move by herself, she'll definitely jump down the building. How can she think of this?! Although she don't people worrying for her, can't she spare a thought for people who care about her?! If this is the case, I'd rather she stay bed-ridden forever! I'd rather she always stay in bed and not move, rather than her being able to move and jumping down to kill herself!

Yesterday went to school for F&N at around 4pm. Shocked by some things which Agnes Lim told me, unbelievable! Starting, Miss Ida seems to be in a bad mood, and I'm thinking my decision making and execution time plan confirm got lots of mistakes, which means I'll get scolded. Who knows, when it's my turn, she didn't really scold much and say it's actually quite okay. Just that I got to link them back to task question and that's it.

Going to study maths later, with the help of Chin Mei. I did the prelim booklet which consists papers from other schools, but for paper one, I can only do some questions! Paper two is gone case. It's like I totally don't know how to do. All need formulas, and I don't even remember the formulas for maths! I think I can fail my O level if I continue this way.

It's drizzling right now, I don't know if I should wake my daddy up to keep the clothes in. I've got no strength to do that, I'm afraid the clothes will drop down instead. Today's the release of 'O' level Mother Tongue results, and I didn't turn up, how great right? Most people must have forgotten my existence, because I'm missing from school for so long.

Walking in and out of the study room, finding things to do. I wanted to do more maths, but I don't even really know how to do most of the questions. My mind is a blank when faced with maths problems. I don't have a brain for studying, which is actually what I wanted to have. I don't want to become a good-for-nothing person when I grow up, I don't want to be a person with not much knowledge compared to others. Although I wanted to be a singer, but singer still need knowledge right? Appearing on variety shows and all, some questions are knowledged-based questions.

Got irritated and woke up at around 4am due to the damn rabbits' stomping their feet plus the pain on my arm and neck makes it impossible to fall asleep peacefully! Feeling hungry right now, but there's nothing to eat. Got to wait until daddy comes back home from work.

My period came, and my mood swing started as well. The feeling is horrible! I always hate this part of me, and hating everybody around me whenever my period came. I swear, when my period came, I've a type of hatred towards everyone that I don't want to talk to people and all. Just, not liking to socialise around whenever my period came.